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OH NO…. was what I screamed when this beautiful baby rolled right off my desk, onto my tile floor and shattered! My very warped mind started singing, “On top of Spaghetti, all covered in love, my poor crystal rolled onto the floor…..”  I wish it had rolled but nope… it shattered! Ironically, it split almost directly in 1/2. As you can see from the picture 1 1/2 is intact, while the other 1/2 completely shattered. The small pieces on the table were the only salvageable pieces. The rest were shards.

I knew that Spirit was trying to give me a message… I searched online for the metaphysical meaning of breaking a crystal. The only information I could find really had nothing to do with the sort of accident that had happened here. Now, some of you may say, accidents happen… sometimes a shattered crystal is just a shattered crystal and nothing more and sometimes you are correct… However, that was not the case here. In the past 3 weeks there has been shattered glass all around me. It started with the back screen door shattering and on the same day a coffee cup fell on cement and shattered. Then 3 days ago my son dropped a glass jar on the floor and it shattered… These items didn’t just break, they SHATTERED into tiny shards that flew everywhere! Given these incidents, I can not discount this beautiful stone shattering as an accident.

Some of the information that I found online was semi helpful but I really had to work to piece it together. So I started from the beginning… 1st of all, this was not my personal stone. It was a stone that I was getting ready to add to my online store for sale. I will explain why this is important later. This was a Fluorite Sphere, deep purple with incredible colors and a very high vibration. And a sphere crystal is about the connection to infinity. The metaphysical meaning of fluorite is: Increase concentration, Heighten Intuition, Clears the fog of illusion and brings order to chaos, the stone of discernment, Helps you see a larger picture. This is a stone that will stabilize relationship dynamics so that all may benefit. Fluorite is about Truth, intelligence, consciousness, purification and harmony.

Each crystal has its own purpose and vibration to help you in many ways. Choosing a crystal is very personal and you may be drawn to a certain crystal not knowing why until you research its usefulness. Crystal can take negativity around you and dispel it or take the energy into itself. When your personal crystal breaks it can mean that you have healed the issue it was used for and it is no longer needed or that you are not doing your work so the crystal breaks to let you know to get busy. Your personal crystal breaking is always symbolic of what is going on in your life. Is someone breaking you or are you breaking someone else? If you take a good honest look at yourself, you will understand why your crystal broke.

So that being said, what does it mean when this crystal shattered? Online I found others asking the question, “What do I do when my crystal breaks?” And found many answers such as bury it to return it back to the earth,  put it in a safe place but really, there was no advice on what to do.  Do with your stone what feels right to you. And certainly no answer to why this crystal broke. The best answer that I found was, “is someone pushing you to the breaking point or is someone close to you at the point of breaking.” Another good one was, “Something in your life is getting ready to break open.” This one seemed to fit the best as I have been focusing all my attention on my business. I also found that it varies on if what broke is good or bad luck. Some people said that if the glass breaks then it took something negative that was aimed at you, essentially saving you from something bad.

But still not satisfied with the answer I went into mediation. What I feel is that this stone breaking was an omen that my business is going to break wide open and that the shattered half is representative of all the negativity crumbling away and the intact half means that just because it was broken doesn’t mean that it is not viable. I was also told that I have to release the old patterns and essentially start fresh!

I do believe that Spirit gives us messages any way that we will listen and this sure got my attention! I would love to hear your stories of what you have broken!

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Today’s reading is about knowing what you want and how to get it. Sometimes you simply have to walk away from those things that are oppressing you so that you may find your Fortune!

With Mercury in Retrograde, the full moon tonight and the 2 Major Arcana cards in this reading, it is clear that there will be a lot of life lessons coming up for us all. Knowledge is power and that begins with knowing what you really want and not accepting anything less…. Now is the time to make the list of your deepest hearts desires. Do not be fooled by cheap imitations… just because it has a pretty package, does not mean it is good on the inside! And if you find that it is not good on the inside, have the strength to walk away, knowing that you are walking towards all that you truly deserve! Your fortune is there but in order for you to find it, simply recognize what you want for your life and walk towards it. I keep hearing the Eagles song, “We are all just prisoners here, of our own device”…. But you do have the key! Unlock yourself from all that does not truly serve you or where you are going!

Because we have a full moon, now is the time to clearly send the universe a message of what you want! Be specific and allow yourself to day dream a little!

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Good Morning… I trust that everyone is doing well this rainy day in the south! I have been sick and so I had to put the tarot readings on the back burner but I am ready to begin again! So here we go!

 

Ironically, I was only going to pull 1 card this morning but it appears that Spirit had something else in mind… LOL. These 2 cards popped out together!

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1st card is the 5 of pentacles: The message here is keep walking forward, it doesn’t matter where you have been, it matters where you are going. Yes you suffered in the past, but what lessons have you learned? How have they made you better? Because this card is paired with the 2 of cups it is not as bad as it appears. The 2 of cups indicates a successful union, a time of celebration! Rejoice that all of your hard work has paid off! Now is the time to balance all that you have learned and pair it with all that you want in your future. Sometimes we have to walk through the dark to get to the light! And sometimes losing everything give you a new appreciation of the abundance in your life.

While the 5 of Pentacles is about unbalance, the 2 of Cups is about harmony and balance! Know that all is as it should be!

If you are going through financial, emotional or spiritual loss, please know that very soon there will be a reason to celebrate! Allow others to help you and remember that your story can help someone else!

 

Love to all and I hope this message has served you in some way!

 

Diana

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What do you think of when you see this sign? Do you react differently, more respectfully? I know that I do… I want to protect the valuable contents that is wrapped in the package….When most people see the warning “Fragile”, they take extra precautions, knowing or at the very least hoping, that a true prize is hidden behind this sticker…  What we often forget is that our body is our packaging and that inside we are a priceless, fragile, breakable and EXTREMELY valuable! Not just some of us…. ALL OF US! We are all dealing with our own internal issues and at the same time dealing with every day life. Life can be traumatizing and painful but at the same time full of valuable lessons about our self and others…  The trauma can make us forget how precious truly living life can be!

Last week I was chatting with a new acquaintance about people being pushed to their limits  and how freeing it could be when someone just lets go and accepts more than they thought they were capable of accepting. This statement sent an ice cold rod of fear straight down the center of my very being.  It forced me to look at my inner self and I did not like what I saw! I was not pushing myself to any limits… I was guarding and protecting myself for fear that if anything in my world changed a hair that the priceless and extremely valuable glass vase inside myself, that is already cracked and traumatized  would completely shatter and I would be left on the floor in absolute pieces again…

Just like everyone else, I have been a package that was kicked around. Someone had shaken and cracked the precious cargo within never understanding how priceless the contents inside were. Never understanding the damage they were creating…. Leaving me to pick up the pieces and put myself back together. However, I have forgotten a very important element until that conversation… and that is gluing the cracks and sanding down the rough edges, filling in the remaining fractures with love, peace and happiness and making my vase solid again… Allowing my vase to hold love again… Knowing that the fractures and the cracks are the limits that I have already pushed myself to and in that statement is pure FREEDOM! My friend was correct…. there is Freedom in pushing yourself to the limits even when you are not sure what those limits are! There are priceless lessons in knowing your own worth and this conversation reminded me of mine!

It would be so easy if we all had this Fragile sticker posted above our heart as a reminder that at the center of our authentic self we just want someone to look at us and realize exactly how priceless, valuable and fragile we truly are and handle us with love and care.

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This statement really hit me this morning… I woke up at 5:30 am to my dog desperate to get outside… When I couldn’t get back to sleep I booted up face book and this message stared me right in the face…

After I let the dog out (and back in) I went back to my nice warm comfy bed only to be bombarded by thoughts of situations that I could not control… People that had hurt me, conversations that I should have, conversations that I have already had, and emails that I want to write. On and on and I could not turn it off…. the longer I lay there, the more frustrated I became… I could not control any one of the situations that poured through me…

And so it IS…. I can not control the way other people behave. I can not control what other people say. I can not control the dog scratching at the door at 5:30! The only thing I am in complete control of is how I choose to behave…. I could get angry at the dog for waking me up, but I know that he is having tummy issues and I am grateful that he “asked” to be let outside so he didn’t have an accident in the house. I could choose to be angry about the person that was talking badly about me, but I choose to understand that she could not see outside of herself long enough see my pain and frustration. I could lash out via email at the person that I feel has betrayed me, but I choose to recognize that betrayal as an end to a friendship that was never supposed to last..

Today, I choose to send love and kindness into the world… Today, I choose to embrace all the lessons I have learned and let go of all of the negative influences that do not serve my highest good… Today, I choose to have control over myself and my connection with God and I choose to LET GO of all the things that I can not (and if the truth be told, do not want to) have control over!!!

 

Namaste!!

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OH NO…. was what I screamed when this beautiful baby rolled right off my desk, onto my tile floor and shattered! My very warped mind started singing, “On top of Spaghetti, all covered in love, my poor crystal rolled onto the floor…..”  I wish it had rolled but nope… it shattered! Ironically, it split almost directly in 1/2. As you can see from the picture 1 1/2 is intact, while the other 1/2 completely shattered. The small pieces on the table were the only salvageable pieces. The rest were shards.

I knew that Spirit was trying to give me a message… I searched online for the metaphysical meaning of breaking a crystal. The only information I could find really had nothing to do with the sort of accident that had happened here. Now, some of you may say, accidents happen… sometimes a shattered crystal is just a shattered crystal and nothing more and sometimes you are correct… However, that was not the case here. In the past 3 weeks there has been shattered glass all around me. It started with the back screen door shattering and on the same day a coffee cup fell on cement and shattered. Then 3 days ago my son dropped a glass jar on the floor and it shattered… These items didn’t just break, they SHATTERED into tiny shards that flew everywhere! Given these incidents, I can not discount this beautiful stone shattering as an accident.

Some of the information that I found online was semi helpful but I really had to work to piece it together. So I started from the beginning… 1st of all, this was not my personal stone. It was a stone that I was getting ready to add to my online store for sale. I will explain why this is important later. This was a Fluorite Sphere, deep purple with incredible colors and a very high vibration. And a sphere crystal is about the connection to infinity. The metaphysical meaning of fluorite is: Increase concentration, Heighten Intuition, Clears the fog of illusion and brings order to chaos, the stone of discernment, Helps you see a larger picture. This is a stone that will stabilize relationship dynamics so that all may benefit. Fluorite is about Truth, intelligence, consciousness, purification and harmony.

Each crystal has its own purpose and vibration to help you in many ways. Choosing a crystal is very personal and you may be drawn to a certain crystal not knowing why until you research its usefulness. Crystal can take negativity around you and dispel it or take the energy into itself. When your personal crystal breaks it can mean that you have healed the issue it was used for and it is no longer needed or that you are not doing your work so the crystal breaks to let you know to get busy. Your personal crystal breaking is always symbolic of what is going on in your life. Is someone breaking you or are you breaking someone else? If you take a good honest look at yourself, you will understand why your crystal broke.

So that being said, what does it mean when this crystal shattered? Online I found others asking the question, “What do I do when my crystal breaks?” And found many answers such as bury it to return it back to the earth,  put it in a safe place but really, there was no advice on what to do.  Do with your stone what feels right to you. And certainly no answer to why this crystal broke. The best answer that I found was, “is someone pushing you to the breaking point or is someone close to you at the point of breaking.” Another good one was, “Something in your life is getting ready to break open.” This one seemed to fit the best as I have been focusing all my attention on my business. I also found that it varies on if what broke is good or bad luck. Some people said that if the glass breaks then it took something negative that was aimed at you, essentially saving you from something bad.

But still not satisfied with the answer I went into mediation. What I feel is that this stone breaking was an omen that my business is going to break wide open and that the shattered half is representative of all the negativity crumbling away and the intact half means that just because it was broken doesn’t mean that it is not viable. I was also told that I have to release the old patterns and essentially start fresh!

I do believe that Spirit gives us messages any way that we will listen and this sure got my attention! I would love to hear your stories of what you have broken!

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March 6th 2011… The day that an emotional tornado ripped through my life leaving it virtually unrecognizable. I don’t know how I have made it through this year. But here I am staring this day in the face daring it to rain on my parade! I feel like Captain Dan from Forest Gump… Sitting on the mask of the shrimping boat yelling, “Come and Get me… I’M RIGHT HERE”! And I add…. I TRIPLE DOG DARE YOU!!! But I know that the tornado has passed and I am ready for smooth sailing! How do I know… Spirit told me that I just had to hold on until March… Well, its March… *happy dancing*

I thought I had the world in my hands… 2 beautiful kids, 2 dogs, a house that I had made a home and a husband that I thought adored his family…I was starting the business that I had always dreamed of opening, had a ton of good friends, loving family and a very healthy client base… So I thought!  That tornado ripped away parts of my life that I was sure were securely rooted and always would be. It turned out that the storm that ripped my world apart had several cells that would pop up every few weeks and destroy any progress I had made. By the end of the storm, I had lost my mother, sister, friends, grandparents and husband. It seemed that the levels of betrayal would never end. This story is not to describe the events of the storm, the story is to describe the rebuilding process and what I have learned about myself.

I still cry almost every night. I am still healing. I cry for me, for all the years I lost because I didn’t know how to do it different. But this is what I have learned about myself and the people around me.

You see… EVERYTHING that happened to me, I had allowed to happen. Of course not consciously but  I had allowed my mother to emotionally abuse and manipulate me for years.She attached labels to me that she should have taken and destroyed…Horrible labels that should never have been attached to me. Sins of a mother that the child had nothing to do with..So of course when I married, I unconsciously carried the weigh of this abuse and labels into my marriage. I allowed my husband to use me as a screen so that it looked as if he had the perfect life… It was all lies! And the tornado shattered them all! Thank you God!

You may ask yourself why I didn’t see it coming if I am a psychic medium…. Well the answer is simple…. I would have tried to stop it. No one wants a storm of this magnitude to rip their safety and security away. I had valuable lessons to learn that would not have been learned if I my safe and secure life had not been disrupted.

So what do I now know about myself? I know that silently and desperately I called for this tornado! I ask for a more substantial life. I ask for more love and to have only people that valued me…. Well, obviously my mother and husband did not value me. If they had, the tornado could have never ripped them away.  Ironically, neither of them wanted to be out of my life and they have used their same manipulative strategies to try to stay in my life. Problem is that I recognize them now and don’t fall for it. I didn’t know how to change it but I do now! *well lets say I am still working on it…* I am learning how difficult it is to change deeply ingrained patterns of behavior. I have learned to recognize it! So that’s a start!

Before the tornadoes, whenever I would look at my life I would see the same old same old… Now, I see a blank canvas of possibilities. I am free of their baggage and free of their abuse! And now that my hands are not full of their crap, I am liberated… Like a prisoner released early! All I see are blue skies!!! And I am ready to grab every ounce of life and opportunity that flows my way!!!

I have learned to FEEL again instead of listening to bullshit words that people spew all the time. I feel the vibrations of the words as truths or lies again!!! (Truth is, I knew they were all lying to me, but I chose to believe their words instead of my feeling.) And it is an amazing feeling to remember this feeling! I am still “remembering” and I don’t always get it right, but I trust my intuition again. HUGE!!! I trust ME AGAIN….ENORMOUS!

Everyday I am learning more and more about me… and I love it! There is so much that I had forgotten about me that I am discovering! And little by little, everyday, I am forgiving those that have betrayed me. I will forgive them for me and bless them on their path knowing that they will get exactly what they deserve without any help from me. I pray that they have learned their lessons also and choose to walk a better path but either way, I bless them for the lessons that they have taught me.

I forgot the best lesson that I have learned… I have learned how to be open and vulnerable again… To live with my heart wide open and experience life with every part of my Body, Mind and Spirit… I have lived through the worse that could ever happen to anyone… Nothing can ever ever ever be as bad as this… I have nothing to fear but fear itself!

The moral of this story is that even though a tornado has blown through your life and destroyed it beyond recognition, it can be a good thing if you allow it to be. Because only after everything has been torn down can you rebuild the REAL life that you want with the REAL people that deserve your love! Don’t ever ever ever settle for less than you deserve!

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Unless you are not human, you have invisible cords connected to your aura and/or physical body. People have different names for the cords and use terms such as, attachments or bonds. Whatever you call them they are there. People who have experienced out of body mediation’sor near death experiences have reported seeing a silver cord connecting their spirit to their physical body. When a baby is born, it is connected to its mother by a cord.

The cords I am speaking about are the cords that keep us connected to an experience, event or people. They are invisible but there none the less. Even when we break from the physical person or event, sometimes we still hold on to the cord. Feeling that if we cut it, we loose the attachment or memory. While there are some cords that we want to keep, there are others that continue to cause us pain; physical and emotional. These are the ones that need to be let go of. While it would seem easy, sometimes it is not.
Recently, I have been feeling the need to let go of past issues. There was one event in my life that I knew still caused me tremendous pain and my guides told me that now was the time to let it go. While doing some spiritual work with a dear friend of mine I ask for her assistance with this. Not really understanding why only knowing that I should.
We went into meditation and she channeled the most helpful and powerful cord cutting I have ever experience. The results have been both physical and emotional. She has also been guided to channel healing Energetic Portals and I have included the link at the bottom of this message. If you do this meditation, please visit the Fire Portal for assistance and if you keep reading, you will understand why. Below is the mediation as I remember it:
We begin by calling in our guides, Arch Angels, Jesus, Mary and the Ascended Masters asking them for support and guidance. See yourself inside a circle of golden, purple fire. Open all of your Chakras and feel the healing light radiate throughout your entire being. Feeling the love and support from the other side and seeing yourself as a light being. Bring in the person or event that you need to separate from. Honestly tell them how you feel, release all attachment and forgive yourself and the event or person. Send the person or event love and ask that the fire burn away what no longer serves your higher self. Sending this healing back into past lives if you need to, sending it across time and space. When you feel you are finished, release the person from the circle. See yourself standing alone there, feeling the healing warmth of the fire and allowing the cord to that event or person to be burned. When you are ready, see the flames lowering knowing that you are safe and supported.
This can be a very short meditation or it can be as long as you need it. You can even do multiple events!
After doing this meditation I have had various physical and emotional symptoms. My spirit feels very light and free but my body physically hurts where the cords were burned away. I am having hot and cold spells although my temperature has remained normal. I am extremely thirsty and feel no desire to eat. My lungs feel clear, yet I have a mild cough. My nose is running but my sinuses feel clear and I have a mild headache, much like the common cold, but at the same time I don’t feel sick. I have a burning down my esophagus like I could vomit but my body does not have to. While I am having physical symptoms, at the same time, I am not. I understand that this does not make a lot of sense, however, this is how I am feeling and I know it is because of all of the events and people that I have been releasing! It feels wonderful and crappy at the same time!!!!
I hope that you use this meditation and that it helps you as much as it has me!! Enjoy!
Please take a moment to visit the website of Linda Backes for the Fire Portal:
UPDATE:
I wanted to update everyone on the past week since I have done this cord cutting… After speaking with Linda and describing my ongoing symptoms she thought to herself that this could not be right for them to last so long… After her meditation she called and told me that I was not finished but that she was not to help as this was a lesson for me to figure out… **big sigh** Thanks Spirit… so off I went into meditation… only to discover that while I had cut the cord to this event, someone was still connected to it… This was a 3 way cord from the event to me to this other person back to the event. Because I was still connected to the person, the cord was not completely severed. So I contacted the person and ask if they were willing to “Go There” with me… Thankfully They were agreeable….
After a long conversation filling in the blanks of things that I didn’t know, we went into meditation and severed their cord to the event! HHUUUUUHHHHH sweet relief! It was severed and healing balm was placed on both of our connect points. We reinforced our connection and the results have been miraculous!

Thank you Linda for helping me figure this out.

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