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OH NO…. was what I screamed when this beautiful baby rolled right off my desk, onto my tile floor and shattered! My very warped mind started singing, “On top of Spaghetti, all covered in love, my poor crystal rolled onto the floor…..”  I wish it had rolled but nope… it shattered! Ironically, it split almost directly in 1/2. As you can see from the picture 1 1/2 is intact, while the other 1/2 completely shattered. The small pieces on the table were the only salvageable pieces. The rest were shards.

I knew that Spirit was trying to give me a message… I searched online for the metaphysical meaning of breaking a crystal. The only information I could find really had nothing to do with the sort of accident that had happened here. Now, some of you may say, accidents happen… sometimes a shattered crystal is just a shattered crystal and nothing more and sometimes you are correct… However, that was not the case here. In the past 3 weeks there has been shattered glass all around me. It started with the back screen door shattering and on the same day a coffee cup fell on cement and shattered. Then 3 days ago my son dropped a glass jar on the floor and it shattered… These items didn’t just break, they SHATTERED into tiny shards that flew everywhere! Given these incidents, I can not discount this beautiful stone shattering as an accident.

Some of the information that I found online was semi helpful but I really had to work to piece it together. So I started from the beginning… 1st of all, this was not my personal stone. It was a stone that I was getting ready to add to my online store for sale. I will explain why this is important later. This was a Fluorite Sphere, deep purple with incredible colors and a very high vibration. And a sphere crystal is about the connection to infinity. The metaphysical meaning of fluorite is: Increase concentration, Heighten Intuition, Clears the fog of illusion and brings order to chaos, the stone of discernment, Helps you see a larger picture. This is a stone that will stabilize relationship dynamics so that all may benefit. Fluorite is about Truth, intelligence, consciousness, purification and harmony.

Each crystal has its own purpose and vibration to help you in many ways. Choosing a crystal is very personal and you may be drawn to a certain crystal not knowing why until you research its usefulness. Crystal can take negativity around you and dispel it or take the energy into itself. When your personal crystal breaks it can mean that you have healed the issue it was used for and it is no longer needed or that you are not doing your work so the crystal breaks to let you know to get busy. Your personal crystal breaking is always symbolic of what is going on in your life. Is someone breaking you or are you breaking someone else? If you take a good honest look at yourself, you will understand why your crystal broke.

So that being said, what does it mean when this crystal shattered? Online I found others asking the question, “What do I do when my crystal breaks?” And found many answers such as bury it to return it back to the earth,  put it in a safe place but really, there was no advice on what to do.  Do with your stone what feels right to you. And certainly no answer to why this crystal broke. The best answer that I found was, “is someone pushing you to the breaking point or is someone close to you at the point of breaking.” Another good one was, “Something in your life is getting ready to break open.” This one seemed to fit the best as I have been focusing all my attention on my business. I also found that it varies on if what broke is good or bad luck. Some people said that if the glass breaks then it took something negative that was aimed at you, essentially saving you from something bad.

But still not satisfied with the answer I went into mediation. What I feel is that this stone breaking was an omen that my business is going to break wide open and that the shattered half is representative of all the negativity crumbling away and the intact half means that just because it was broken doesn’t mean that it is not viable. I was also told that I have to release the old patterns and essentially start fresh!

I do believe that Spirit gives us messages any way that we will listen and this sure got my attention! I would love to hear your stories of what you have broken!

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We have all seen the TV shows glamorizing the paranormal… and for the most part, they are wonderful as they bring this way of life from the back door to the main stream. For that, I am so very grateful! However, I do have a bit of an issue with some of these shows…

Because these shows are so main stream now, people assume that my life is similar to those on TV. My answer is NO. Why? Because it would make me insane!!! I would never allow anyone, alive or dead to intrude on my private time. Could you imagine not having any control over the voices in your head? It would feel like Whoopi Goldburg in Ghost. No one wants to feel that way. And I certainly do not want to be waken from a sound sleep with a ghost or spirit (yes there is a HUGE difference that I will explain in another blog post) desperately trying to get my attention. If that was really the case, I would not do this work!  (or more realistically, I would be in a rubber room wrapped in a “hug myself” jacket).

My everyday life is just like everyone else’s… I am a mother, cook, housekeeper, friend, writer, student, wine lover, artist, light worker and grocery shopper.. All very average and mainstream. I have to go to school events and wash my own car just like everyone else! I do not go to the supermarket with my crystal ball and turban… I reserve those items for Halloween! LOL. However, I do have a crystal ball (see picture above)… No self respecting medium would be without one! Oh yeah, did I mention that I am a bit of a smart ass? But those are things that I do and some of my personality traits… Just like everyone else, when I am working, I am the ultimate professional…

There are very strict ethics involved in this work… And believe me, this is serious work! This is work that provides comfort and peace to a person that is dealing with the passing of a loved one… This is work that leads someone that is lost into God’s divine light. And I, work on the front lines with normal, everyday people showing them that God lives inside of us, that there is no need to look to any outside source. I never for one single second forget that this has absolutely nothing to do with me and everything to do with being a witness for something greater than myself! This work is SACRED and should always be treated with the highest regard! As a medium, I work in God’s Service for other people.

That being said, I feel that it is unethical to walk up to someone on the street and just give them a reading. While most of you think, “I would love if that happened to me!” it is an invasion of your privacy. Honestly, I feel like its kinda creepy… I would not want to be sideswiped that way so I would never do that to someone else. However, it is wonderful for ratings… and at the same time, it is a wonderful way for people to see that there is really nothing scary in what we do.

Which leads to the great debate… Is it worth it to get the word out? My answer is an emphatic YES!! Yes I want people to know the peace and love from the other side… Yes, I want people to understand that the dead people I talk to IS THE HOLY SPIRIT! Yes, you are saved, even if some of your actions were not always perfect… Yes, God Loves you!!!

So I ask you… How will you work in service to someone else today?

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Not long ago I met someone that was dealing with a tremendous amount of personal problems. Once it looked like an issue was solved something else would come up and she felt stuck in a pattern that she could not see her way out of. When I shook her hand I felt like I was covered with a fog of negativity and my feet felt heavy like I was walking through mud. No wonder this girl felt stuck… SHE WAS!! Her aura was clogged with a negative fog that prevented her from making the correct choices.

As a medium, when I come in contact with an issue like this, it kinda absorbs into my aura too. Not that I intentionally try to take on the issues, but I have to know what she is going through and this is how I have agreed to help. When I shook her hand, our auras connected and some of her fog absorbed. I am trained  to handle these issues and have an enormous tool box of solutions at my disposal!! This time I chose Smoky Quartz and it worked like a charm!

My 1st thought was that this girl needs some Smoky Quartz STAT! Smoky Quartz is brown quartz so in addition to all of the healing properties of clear quartz, smoky quartz will absorb negativity and quickly transmute it into positive, flowing energy. Smoky Quartz replaced the negativity with calmness, clarity and intuition. In addition to clearing the aura, it also helps clear blockages in the digestive system, hips, feet, legs, abdomen and may help calm cramps! This is a grounding stone so it works best with the lower half of your body… (clearing stuck energy at your feet as with my client). We all know that when we are grounded we feel more balanced.

I found this on http://www.witchipedia.com/mineral:smoky-quartz.

Healing and Magickal Uses

Body: Smoky quartz melts energy blocks in the lower torso including the kidneys and reproductive organs. Smokey quartz is also useful for removing toxins and excess fluids in the body. It also tones the adrenal glands and helps settle hyper activity and helps with insomnia.

Mind: Smoky quartz is mildly sedative, grounding and relaxing and is a good focal point for meditation. It helps to balance the energies of the mind and body and enhances your ability to remember your dreams. It reduces anxiety and depression.

Magick: Smoky quartz protects home, work, and vehicles. Banishes nightmares and fears. Wear smoky quartz to enhance your ability to channel spirits. Use smoky quartz to banish negativity; Stand with your bare feet on the earth and hold a smoky quartz with the tip down. Release negative energy into the Earth and visualize it decaying into fertilizer to nourish plants and trees.

Every day we are all exposed to negative people, messages, thoughts and influences and if they are not released they will continue to collect in our aura and will eventually be absorbed into our body to form a dis-ease. Smoky Quartz should be a mainstay in your Spiritual Tool Box to release negativity from your aura before it gets to your physical body…

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Today’s Tarot cards… I was instructed to pull 2 today… Hmmmm… it seems that there is a lot going on…
The 1st card I pulled is the King of Cups reversed. He is telling us that we need to keep our emotions in check today, there is a lot of energy flying at us that we will have to deal with calmly. Keep your emotions balanced and remember that sometimes other people’s issues have nothing to do with you and you don’t have to take them personally.
The next card I pulled is the 4 of Staves (Wands)… As long as we can keep our emotions in check today is a day of celebration! A day where all your hard work has finally paid off. I am also being told that if you have been making a plan in your head or on paper that today is the perfect day to test out those theories… just remember, this is a test so keep your emotions balanced!

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What do you think of when you see this sign? Do you react differently, more respectfully? I know that I do… I want to protect the valuable contents that is wrapped in the package….When most people see the warning “Fragile”, they take extra precautions, knowing or at the very least hoping, that a true prize is hidden behind this sticker…  What we often forget is that our body is our packaging and that inside we are a priceless, fragile, breakable and EXTREMELY valuable! Not just some of us…. ALL OF US! We are all dealing with our own internal issues and at the same time dealing with every day life. Life can be traumatizing and painful but at the same time full of valuable lessons about our self and others…  The trauma can make us forget how precious truly living life can be!

Last week I was chatting with a new acquaintance about people being pushed to their limits  and how freeing it could be when someone just lets go and accepts more than they thought they were capable of accepting. This statement sent an ice cold rod of fear straight down the center of my very being.  It forced me to look at my inner self and I did not like what I saw! I was not pushing myself to any limits… I was guarding and protecting myself for fear that if anything in my world changed a hair that the priceless and extremely valuable glass vase inside myself, that is already cracked and traumatized  would completely shatter and I would be left on the floor in absolute pieces again…

Just like everyone else, I have been a package that was kicked around. Someone had shaken and cracked the precious cargo within never understanding how priceless the contents inside were. Never understanding the damage they were creating…. Leaving me to pick up the pieces and put myself back together. However, I have forgotten a very important element until that conversation… and that is gluing the cracks and sanding down the rough edges, filling in the remaining fractures with love, peace and happiness and making my vase solid again… Allowing my vase to hold love again… Knowing that the fractures and the cracks are the limits that I have already pushed myself to and in that statement is pure FREEDOM! My friend was correct…. there is Freedom in pushing yourself to the limits even when you are not sure what those limits are! There are priceless lessons in knowing your own worth and this conversation reminded me of mine!

It would be so easy if we all had this Fragile sticker posted above our heart as a reminder that at the center of our authentic self we just want someone to look at us and realize exactly how priceless, valuable and fragile we truly are and handle us with love and care.

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We have all seen the TV shows glamorizing the paranormal… and for the most part, they are wonderful as they bring this way of life from the back door to the main stream. For that, I am so very grateful! However, I do have a bit of an issue with some of these shows…

Because these shows are so main stream now, people assume that my life is similar to those on TV. My answer is NO. Why? Because it would make me insane!!! I would never allow anyone, alive or dead to intrude on my private time. Could you imagine not having any control over the voices in your head? It would feel like Whoopi Goldburg in Ghost. No one wants to feel that way. And I certainly do not want to be waken from a sound sleep with a ghost or spirit (yes there is a HUGE difference that I will explain in another blog post) desperately trying to get my attention. If that was really the case, I would not do this work!  (or more realistically, I would be in a rubber room wrapped in a “hug myself” jacket).

My everyday life is just like everyone else’s… I am a mother, cook, housekeeper, friend, writer, student, wine lover, artist, light worker and grocery shopper.. All very average and mainstream. I have to go to school events and wash my own car just like everyone else! I do not go to the supermarket with my crystal ball and turban… I reserve those items for Halloween! LOL. However, I do have a crystal ball (see picture above)… No self respecting medium would be without one! Oh yeah, did I mention that I am a bit of a smart ass? But those are things that I do and some of my personality traits… Just like everyone else, when I am working, I am the ultimate professional…

There are very strict ethics involved in this work… And believe me, this is serious work! This is work that provides comfort and peace to a person that is dealing with the passing of a loved one… This is work that leads someone that is lost into God’s divine light. And I, work on the front lines with normal, everyday people showing them that God lives inside of us, that there is no need to look to any outside source. I never for one single second forget that this has absolutely nothing to do with me and everything to do with being a witness for something greater than myself! This work is SACRED and should always be treated with the highest regard! As a medium, I work in God’s Service for other people.

That being said, I feel that it is unethical to walk up to someone on the street and just give them a reading. While most of you think, “I would love if that happened to me!” it is an invasion of your privacy. Honestly, I feel like its kinda creepy… I would not want to be sideswiped that way so I would never do that to someone else. However, it is wonderful for ratings… and at the same time, it is a wonderful way for people to see that there is really nothing scary in what we do.

Which leads to the great debate… Is it worth it to get the word out? My answer is an emphatic YES!! Yes I want people to know the peace and love from the other side… Yes, I want people to understand that the dead people I talk to IS THE HOLY SPIRIT! Yes, you are saved, even if some of your actions were not always perfect… Yes, God Loves you!!!

So I ask you… How will you work in service to someone else today?

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OH NO…. was what I screamed when this beautiful baby rolled right off my desk, onto my tile floor and shattered! My very warped mind started singing, “On top of Spaghetti, all covered in love, my poor crystal rolled onto the floor…..”  I wish it had rolled but nope… it shattered! Ironically, it split almost directly in 1/2. As you can see from the picture 1 1/2 is intact, while the other 1/2 completely shattered. The small pieces on the table were the only salvageable pieces. The rest were shards.

I knew that Spirit was trying to give me a message… I searched online for the metaphysical meaning of breaking a crystal. The only information I could find really had nothing to do with the sort of accident that had happened here. Now, some of you may say, accidents happen… sometimes a shattered crystal is just a shattered crystal and nothing more and sometimes you are correct… However, that was not the case here. In the past 3 weeks there has been shattered glass all around me. It started with the back screen door shattering and on the same day a coffee cup fell on cement and shattered. Then 3 days ago my son dropped a glass jar on the floor and it shattered… These items didn’t just break, they SHATTERED into tiny shards that flew everywhere! Given these incidents, I can not discount this beautiful stone shattering as an accident.

Some of the information that I found online was semi helpful but I really had to work to piece it together. So I started from the beginning… 1st of all, this was not my personal stone. It was a stone that I was getting ready to add to my online store for sale. I will explain why this is important later. This was a Fluorite Sphere, deep purple with incredible colors and a very high vibration. And a sphere crystal is about the connection to infinity. The metaphysical meaning of fluorite is: Increase concentration, Heighten Intuition, Clears the fog of illusion and brings order to chaos, the stone of discernment, Helps you see a larger picture. This is a stone that will stabilize relationship dynamics so that all may benefit. Fluorite is about Truth, intelligence, consciousness, purification and harmony.

Each crystal has its own purpose and vibration to help you in many ways. Choosing a crystal is very personal and you may be drawn to a certain crystal not knowing why until you research its usefulness. Crystal can take negativity around you and dispel it or take the energy into itself. When your personal crystal breaks it can mean that you have healed the issue it was used for and it is no longer needed or that you are not doing your work so the crystal breaks to let you know to get busy. Your personal crystal breaking is always symbolic of what is going on in your life. Is someone breaking you or are you breaking someone else? If you take a good honest look at yourself, you will understand why your crystal broke.

So that being said, what does it mean when this crystal shattered? Online I found others asking the question, “What do I do when my crystal breaks?” And found many answers such as bury it to return it back to the earth,  put it in a safe place but really, there was no advice on what to do.  Do with your stone what feels right to you. And certainly no answer to why this crystal broke. The best answer that I found was, “is someone pushing you to the breaking point or is someone close to you at the point of breaking.” Another good one was, “Something in your life is getting ready to break open.” This one seemed to fit the best as I have been focusing all my attention on my business. I also found that it varies on if what broke is good or bad luck. Some people said that if the glass breaks then it took something negative that was aimed at you, essentially saving you from something bad.

But still not satisfied with the answer I went into mediation. What I feel is that this stone breaking was an omen that my business is going to break wide open and that the shattered half is representative of all the negativity crumbling away and the intact half means that just because it was broken doesn’t mean that it is not viable. I was also told that I have to release the old patterns and essentially start fresh!

I do believe that Spirit gives us messages any way that we will listen and this sure got my attention! I would love to hear your stories of what you have broken!

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March 6th 2011… The day that an emotional tornado ripped through my life leaving it virtually unrecognizable. I don’t know how I have made it through this year. But here I am staring this day in the face daring it to rain on my parade! I feel like Captain Dan from Forest Gump… Sitting on the mask of the shrimping boat yelling, “Come and Get me… I’M RIGHT HERE”! And I add…. I TRIPLE DOG DARE YOU!!! But I know that the tornado has passed and I am ready for smooth sailing! How do I know… Spirit told me that I just had to hold on until March… Well, its March… *happy dancing*

I thought I had the world in my hands… 2 beautiful kids, 2 dogs, a house that I had made a home and a husband that I thought adored his family…I was starting the business that I had always dreamed of opening, had a ton of good friends, loving family and a very healthy client base… So I thought!  That tornado ripped away parts of my life that I was sure were securely rooted and always would be. It turned out that the storm that ripped my world apart had several cells that would pop up every few weeks and destroy any progress I had made. By the end of the storm, I had lost my mother, sister, friends, grandparents and husband. It seemed that the levels of betrayal would never end. This story is not to describe the events of the storm, the story is to describe the rebuilding process and what I have learned about myself.

I still cry almost every night. I am still healing. I cry for me, for all the years I lost because I didn’t know how to do it different. But this is what I have learned about myself and the people around me.

You see… EVERYTHING that happened to me, I had allowed to happen. Of course not consciously but  I had allowed my mother to emotionally abuse and manipulate me for years.She attached labels to me that she should have taken and destroyed…Horrible labels that should never have been attached to me. Sins of a mother that the child had nothing to do with..So of course when I married, I unconsciously carried the weigh of this abuse and labels into my marriage. I allowed my husband to use me as a screen so that it looked as if he had the perfect life… It was all lies! And the tornado shattered them all! Thank you God!

You may ask yourself why I didn’t see it coming if I am a psychic medium…. Well the answer is simple…. I would have tried to stop it. No one wants a storm of this magnitude to rip their safety and security away. I had valuable lessons to learn that would not have been learned if I my safe and secure life had not been disrupted.

So what do I now know about myself? I know that silently and desperately I called for this tornado! I ask for a more substantial life. I ask for more love and to have only people that valued me…. Well, obviously my mother and husband did not value me. If they had, the tornado could have never ripped them away.  Ironically, neither of them wanted to be out of my life and they have used their same manipulative strategies to try to stay in my life. Problem is that I recognize them now and don’t fall for it. I didn’t know how to change it but I do now! *well lets say I am still working on it…* I am learning how difficult it is to change deeply ingrained patterns of behavior. I have learned to recognize it! So that’s a start!

Before the tornadoes, whenever I would look at my life I would see the same old same old… Now, I see a blank canvas of possibilities. I am free of their baggage and free of their abuse! And now that my hands are not full of their crap, I am liberated… Like a prisoner released early! All I see are blue skies!!! And I am ready to grab every ounce of life and opportunity that flows my way!!!

I have learned to FEEL again instead of listening to bullshit words that people spew all the time. I feel the vibrations of the words as truths or lies again!!! (Truth is, I knew they were all lying to me, but I chose to believe their words instead of my feeling.) And it is an amazing feeling to remember this feeling! I am still “remembering” and I don’t always get it right, but I trust my intuition again. HUGE!!! I trust ME AGAIN….ENORMOUS!

Everyday I am learning more and more about me… and I love it! There is so much that I had forgotten about me that I am discovering! And little by little, everyday, I am forgiving those that have betrayed me. I will forgive them for me and bless them on their path knowing that they will get exactly what they deserve without any help from me. I pray that they have learned their lessons also and choose to walk a better path but either way, I bless them for the lessons that they have taught me.

I forgot the best lesson that I have learned… I have learned how to be open and vulnerable again… To live with my heart wide open and experience life with every part of my Body, Mind and Spirit… I have lived through the worse that could ever happen to anyone… Nothing can ever ever ever be as bad as this… I have nothing to fear but fear itself!

The moral of this story is that even though a tornado has blown through your life and destroyed it beyond recognition, it can be a good thing if you allow it to be. Because only after everything has been torn down can you rebuild the REAL life that you want with the REAL people that deserve your love! Don’t ever ever ever settle for less than you deserve!

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